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So I finished my

smutty_claus piece and submitted over the weekend which was great. But what with on thing and another I'm feeling quite frazzled, now.

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Any unwinding suggestions appreciated.

Firstly, Claiming Is Open at the first round of

fortheloveofhp there are some really awesome prompts there and so other people prompted things too.

So maybe go check that out? The deadline is end of July so you'd have like three months to write something for it. Thats oodles of time.

Of course I've heard that before. That's what I told myself about

hprarefest and I still haven't got very far with that. I know I've whinged about this constantly but my muse/ writeroisty is having a strop and won't let me write anything at all. AT ALL.

So I sort of want to claim something for fortheloveof... because it looks like a nice fest I want to see continue (and my, the number of het prompts! so awesome. Somehow they still got a slash prompt though) On the other hand none of the prompts really scream write me and I also sort of want to quite rarefest and it seems silly to quit one fest and then get myself right back in the same postion.

Also claiming for

hp_porninthesun is supposed to be up tomorrow. So maybe that'll be inspiring also.

So I'm typing this at half past one in the morning of the first of january 2013. Fun times, sitting at home alone, watching my Avengers dvd.

Well wishes to everyone reading this. hoep you have had/are having/will have a great time and a great 2013.

But similar to a post i made way back in june. This time of year is a time when I really managed to work myself up into a state worrying. Boxing Day night for example i fretted myself to the point of not sleeping well.

Now past years, i've just been able to write it off as 'I have january exams i need to revise for'. But this year no exams just life in general.

got my industrial placement job till early-mid May. And the last part of my master's from sept (the research project/dissertation bit). And inbetween I have no idea. Prep for the dissertation I guess and part time work if i can find it. And I suppose I'll have to move back in with my folks.

This worries me. And the dissertation just scares the shit out of me. It's supposed to be all original and stuff but I just have no idea what I'm going to do and how I'm going to do it. Doesn't help the dissertation for my first degree was pretty structured from the fieldwork we did and even then i barely scraped it. And i scraped the dissertation prep module we actually did for the masters.

Just general a big urgh feeling about the new year.

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In fandom news, I ended up claiming or trying to claim one of my own prompts at

hp_kinkfest for an early feb posting. So won't entirely be unbusy. Still posting at

smutty_claus should be finished now. Just waiting on reveals.

Current Mood: agitated

... and messaged the new mod for

harryhetbigbang saying that I was going to have to consider myself dropped out of the fest. The first deadline is two days from now. And given my return trip home this weekend. I'm not going to be able to write for it today. Not that i've ever really managed to get down to any writing.

So I have about the third of the length required for the first draft. And most of that was actually written before the fest even started.

Part of it is that i've flitted between two different story ideas: A Harry/Cho one and a harry/Susan one. But mostly it's that i've never managed to sit down and write.

It's not that I've been too busy. One of the good things about work is that, out-of-work i don't have to worry what I do. It's not like school where i should be working/revising and feeling guilty when i don't.

So yeah its just that i'm lazy or maybe writing just isn't the hobby for me.

I'm feeling bummed because, The Harry het thing is exactly what i said i wanted, and i feel like I've let it down and been a bit hypocritical in the process. And second because the fest fic is adding to a pile of things i've never finished properly.

Meh, consider this post the culmination of all those whiny why haven't i done shit this weekend posts.

Still

smutty_claus is still too go. i might actually finish that one, partly because of the gift swap element and partly because if you drop out they kick you out permantly.

Current Mood: blah

Well, the problem with an applaince that is both a microwave and an oven is that eventually you will microwave something you meant to over...

... for twenty minutes...

...and flood the house with a smokey smell...

... the house that is open plan for most of the first floor.

And the really stupid thing... this is not the first time i've done this!

so sitting with the laptop on battery power, waiting for my replacement food for my tea to cook at halfpast eight.

Not having the best evening.

Current Mood: distressed

OK so this may get a little ranty and emoish. It's just i thought it might help to write it out. So its for me more than anyone else. Feel free to skip it if you like.

( personal stuff under cut )

Normal service now resumes.

Current Mood: nervous

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