The Light Of Daye

... and messaged the new mod for harryhetbigbang saying that I was going to have to consider myself dropped out of the fest. The first deadline is two days from now. And given my return trip home this weekend. I'm not going to be able to write for it today. Not that i've ever really managed to get down to any writing.

So I have about the third of the length required for the first draft. And most of that was actually written before the fest even started.

Part of it is that i've flitted between two different story ideas: A Harry/Cho one and a harry/Susan one. But mostly it's that i've never managed to sit down and write.

It's not that I've been too busy. One of the good things about work is that, out-of-work i don't have to worry what I do. It's not like school where i should be working/revising and feeling guilty when i don't.

So yeah its just that i'm lazy or maybe writing just isn't the hobby for me.

I'm feeling bummed because, The Harry het thing is exactly what i said i wanted, and i feel like I've let it down and been a bit hypocritical in the process. And second because the fest fic is adding to a pile of things i've never finished properly.

Meh, consider this post the culmination of all those whiny why haven't i done shit this weekend posts.

Still smutty_claus is still too go. i might actually finish that one, partly because of the gift swap element and partly because if you drop out they kick you out permantly.

But I just don't want to, I feel totally off for no apparent reason.

I don't know if I feel tired or restless or depressed or what. It's just really, weird.

I keep thinking I'll put a dvd on or something. Then I pick up a dvd, take a look, decides it's crap and call the whole thing off.

WTH, body?